Hmmmmm...

I'm not so good at this, am I? Ten months without a new post? I definitely need Web Log Writer Lessons. Do they have classes at the local community college? These past 10 (11?) months have been quite dizzying, if that's any excuse.

I have been changing my lazy, internetting ways, mostly strictly controling how much I'm on while my children are awake. But also, I'm only visiting places that please me. I was in a habit of going someplace daily where I'd hung out for 3 (!) years, but was no longer making me happy. Each time I left this place, I felt worse than when I got there. & that just had to stop. But, as any smoker knows, habits are hard to break. So I took a page out of the "replace the behavior with another behavior" book. For awhile this was doing crafty things, but energy after 9 pm for starting or picking up a sewing project seriously wanes after awhile & I soon found myself back at the computer after kiddy bedtime. Somehow, I found myself on Soulemama's blog. I think it might have been this post about a homemade skating pond. or maybe some of her drool-worthy embroidery. Anyhow, I fell in LOVE. I am in love with Soulemama. and her children. but mostly her. I was thinking last night as I was tidying up that I want to crawl into her skin & be her for awhile. & then I thought, "Ewwwww....STALKER!" But I do. I want to learn to push aside all the ugliness, the screaming, the "not going right" of the day (of every day) & focus on the good, the beauty, the peace.

So all that leads me to my new purpose here. To be a copycat. (cough cough) Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, is it not? But also, when you've been in the bad habit of concentrating on the bad, you need a lot of "new behaviors" to pull out of it. & also, a step by step plan. Winging it only gets you back in the dumps. So, Amanda Blake Soule, you are my 12 step program!