Feeling a little sad...but it isn't bad

Lately I've really been nostalgic for the twins' toddlerhood. I see how I missed so much in the moment. Too busy trying to do it all, that the enjoyment was stifled. I'm so sad that time is gone & I feel like I barely have memories of it all. I'm sure my lack of memory is partially due to sleep deprivation. Nevertheless, I'm desperate to not let it happen now. 5 is still so young. When they are graduating high school, 5 will be little, infancy a fog. So I'm trying to say yes more often & give the finger to the housework. Something I should've been doing for a long time now. Of course, it helps to know that every 2 weeks, the house gets a scrubbing by someone other than me, and that makes it easier to let it go. Today was cupcakes. Someone had been asking to make cupcakes since Friday. We finally had enough minutes in a row to do it. It was frustrating, as usual. (too many cooks in the kitchen) but we DID IT. and they were delicious.